My Birthday celebrations

October 23 2008 Bangalore Ashram
I got up around 4:30 AM.. got ready.. did sandya vandan.. went for group sadana.. then i wore new kurta and headed towards divine shop to purchase sweets to distribute.. I met amma (most powerful blesser in ashram) on the way... she blessed me.. as usual i distributed the sweets in office and to other ashram friends... but i do not feel much joy as guruji was not here in ashram.. but he is always so compassionate.. before leaving to US he threw a garland which got surrrounded on my hand.. the day went.. in the evening new satsang policies were enforced. Half an hour dance and half an hour meditation.. Then after meditation kashi bhaiya called for birthday people.. i was the only one in the entire ashram group to celebrate birthday. it was very nice .. i walked to the stage alone. Kashi bhaiya gave me a flower from guruji's photo..
Then meenal didi asked me to go for kalari payitru session(kerala's martial art).. it was very nice.. we had great fun.. somyatej swamiji was also there.. it was total fun.. then i called dinesh bhaiya for blessing as he was in mumbai for taking course... but suddenly dinesh baiya told me that he is in ashram and he asked me to come to his room.. so i had my dinner and started rushing to dinesh bhaiya's room.. but on the way my delivery manager called me and he told me that i have done fentastic performance for the past one year and it will be reflected in my monetary benefits.. he said it is the diwali gift and it is also my bday gift.. then i rushed to dinesh bhaiys's room.. then dinesh bhaiya gave a warm hug and he blessed me.. to my surprise there was a guru pooja organized and bhaiya said i should participate.. i was so happy... then i went to canteen and gave treat to my friends in ashram as the pooja is scheduled 1 hour later.. then again i headed towards dinesh bhaiya's room.. then after 1 hour we had pooja.. before pooja i had food in the dinesh bhaiya's room.. pooja started.. bawu performed the pooja.. pooja got over by 11:57PM.. bawu called "birthday boy"and gave me prasad.. then i was about to leave from dinesh bhaiya's room.. Suddenly dinesh bhaiya called me inside his room and asked bawu to give me some gift.. Bawu gave 3 foreign chocalates and some body lotion .:) then i got blessings from bawu .. Dinesh bhaiya gave me a warm hug once again and blessed me... it was 12:15.. heavy rain... reached my room by 12:30.. then slept...

This is how guruji gives me surprises.. he is great.. Guruji i love u the most..

Love,
Suresh.K

Krishna Jayanthi (23.08.08)

Bangalore Ashram
Today Satsang happened in Amphi theatre.. As usual the amphitheatre was full.. After few bhajans Guruji walked down from Ganga kutir like a lotus.. He was just walking as if he is floating in the sky. The stage was so decorated and jula was kept for Guruji .. Then Guruji sat and went into meditation.. One after the other Krishna songs were sung.. When it strikes 8:45 PM Guruji came out of his samadhi and he started with his "hhhmmmmmmmm" sound.. He explained us the 4th chapter of Bhagavad Gita. He said "Krishna says - i had taken birth so many times and Arjuna you also had taken so many births.. but i remember and you did not remember.. " then he said Krishna is the total personality.. in his child hood, in his youth he was so total. He was a true friend .. he was a perfect student.. etc... " Then Guruji called our Megalaya kids to break the makkan pot.. it was full of celebration..

As i said since i am undergoing treatment for eyes i could not see distant things clearly... guruji gave nice dharshan's to me today also.. tears flow down . i felt happy.. One miracle is happening to me every day for this week.. Whenever i have a intention to meet some one i just walk straight to them .. i found so many people in the big crowd inspite of my vision.. :)..His GRACE is infinite.. He is everything.. He is Krishna....... Just i have to realize i am Arjuna. he is my companion..i am his devotee... :)

Satsang (15.08.08)

Today Satsang happened in Yagnashala.. As usual the venue was full with people(TRM,TTC,YLTP.etc). Guruji came around 8 and as usual he was in full masti.. after some bhajans some break was there.. then guruji started 'hmmmm'.. and as asual he asked how many people had come from bangalore .how are you all?? happy?? then after some time suddenly he started "Narayana Narayana jai jai govidahare " bhajan.. then he asked for some more songs.. when the clock strikes 8:40PM he asked what is the time now.. Then he allowed everyone to wear him beautiful thrones.. :) then suddenly picked his favourite disco light glass... immediately all the yagnashala lights were switched off.. only guruji's goggles were glittering with disco lights..
he allowed us to view it for a few min...:).. then birthday's and anniversaries.. :).........................

Inspite of sitting very near(7 th row ) to the stage i cannot see guruji's face clearly as i am taking treatment to remove spex(ayurvedic treatement - netratarpan)..... so i was little bit upset.. then when i was near VM by 10PM guruji came from ganga kutir to TRM session ..He gave me a very close dharsan............... :)

Close to the master!!!

Today my buttons got pushed when some of my collegues behaved in a crazy manner. But soon i realized that i am out of track and went back to look at Dinesh bhaiya's mails.. He asked me to be a great leader. His words are "Create a hard-working and smart-working culture around and dont get discouraged by anything or anyone".. so i was realizing my mistake and again i was searching some old mails. Suddenly to my surprise i got a mail saying beautifully about close to the master.. i was very happy to read the mail as it gave me a different view about surrender and closeness to the master now.. I found the meaning of surrender varies at different levels of consciousness... Have a look at the mail...
CLOSE TO THE MASTER:
If you're not feeling close to the Guru, it's because of you. Because of your mind, because of your ego concepts. Share with the Guru that which is very important or intimate to you. Share that. Do not feel shame, shy, or judgmental about yourself.
Unless you express to the Master that which is very intimate and important to you, just being on the formal and informal communication levels cannot make you feel close. "How are you, where are you going? How have you been?" Stop formal and superficial conversations with the Master and speak with your heart that which is very important and intimate, very deep to your life. Don't just say how much the squash costs, 30 cents or whatever.
If you don't feel close to the Master, there's no point in having a Master. It is just another burden to you. You have enough already. Just say "Goodbye," get rid of it.
Question:
When you play little games and push us away, how can we feel close to you?
Answer: You should feel more close if you are pushed away, scolded or ignored. Because to ignore somebody takes a lot of effort. When a Master does not even ignore wrapping paper, or a flower that is in a vase, how can he ignore a walking, talking, breathing human being who is connected? How could that be ignored? So when you understand this, you already feel close.
Question:
Can we call you every week?Response from the room: Call Guruji every week and if he doesn't answer the phone then you know you are loved.
Answer: Yes, put that in. (Laughter)
You are with the Master to share the joy of the Master, to share the consciousness of the Master. For that, you have to empty your cup of what is already in it. So you share that with the Master. You share whatever you have and don't judge, "Oh, that is garbage." The Master is ready to accept any garbage of any extent. However you are, he will embrace you. He is ready to share. You only have to share from your side.
Jai Guru Dev :)

To My Beloved

The water flowed down the mountain
The stream whispered in my ear
"Do you see the magic
Do you see in me the most dear?"

The bud opened its arms
The flower touched my face
Can you smell the presence
In me, can you feel the essence?"

The caterpillar felt the change
The butterfly then flew past, humming
"Can you my dear, hear the beat
The heart's performing His magical feat".

The sky burst with happiness infinite
And the earth grew wet in the bliss
"In the infinite grace that you get
Do the words in your mind ever cease?"

I smiled in wonder
At the magic nurtured by beautiful nature
And I thought of my Beloved
And the mind silenced itself
I met my Guru.

Guru Poornima Festival in ashram

The most important day in a devotees life is Guru Poornima.. Today morning we have a nice long kriya in Yagnyashala.. In the evening around 5:30 Pm we rushed to VM for Guru Pooja..Thank god it started a little late.. Then we all soaked in the guruji' s virtual presence... pitaji was there... Chanting started.. guru pooja.. then rudra pooja.. this time i could recollect all the words of the chanting (since i learnt rudram for six months :-)).. very nice exp.. then we had satsang... very nice exp...tears of gratitude from us.... then we had a minute video session of guruji.. then we had dinner.. we are asked to come to VM to listen to a live video session of guruji.. We rushed to VM after 9 PM and skype was ready from our side.We connected skype call with US.. Guruji came and started saying "They are waiting for me !!!". then as usual his naughty things started.. he waved his hands... he said "During festivals like diwali we used to share cards.. during guru poornima we have to share gyan and vairagya(dispassionate).. he said blessings are full for everyone.. just we have to increase our capacity to receive it.. then he did all naughty poses.. tears of gratitude.. when he said "ok...jgd" every body shouted " No Guruji..." then he again stayed back with us for some more minutes.. waving left hand right hand both the hands.. so superb.. then he said jgd in a stylish manner and the skype call ended... very nice...
Jai गुरुदेव!!
Suresh

SangaSatchvam - New Event in Ashram for Ashramates

Yesterday a new event called SangaSatchvam was launched for the ashramates .. It is a 5 day event where senior members of our family will share guru stories and the story of the ashram etc.. yesterday Kasi bhaiya was chosen for the first day. He told us the stories of our ashram evolution and VM construction.. Very nice to hear it.. and a foreign doctor shared us an experiment which she did some couple of days before.. she called a volunteer and asked her to strech her right hand and she asked her some questions like "u like ashram" ,"Guruji loves u" etc which she said yes and her hand was so tight that when we push it, did not come down. But then she asked her to take out her mobile phone and asked her to put it in her ears and again she repeated the same questions. this time for each question the hand went down just for slight push.. this shows how our prana gets reduced when we use our mobile phone. Then she went a little deeper and asked her to repeat the same with the mobile but this time seeing guruji's photo in VM. this time her hands were straight and it remained in that position even after pushing it..
then she asked her to give her mobile bag and she inserted something inside it and she asked her to see a plain space and repeat the same thing (with mobile in her ear).. this time also her hands remained straight.. then we realized that she put Guruji's locket inside the mobile bag.. Just Guruji's photo and locket is saving our prana from such devices.. think...!!!!!!! we are living with the physical body of the master...............Be grateful for what we have now.................

Jai Gurudev!!
Love
Suresh.K

June 28 2008 Satsang, Bangalore Ashram

Written in limited time.. apologize for mistakes..

After a series of satsangs in ampi theatre today's satsang happened in VM. By 7:25 pm the satsang started and with no surprise VM was full. There was no space even to stand. one hour past.. bhajans..dance... and crowd... Around 8:30 PM the doors of VM got closed. Usually the doors will be closed when guruji is inside the VM and around 9 when it is time for him to leave .. but today it is just opposite.. still guruji has not come.. then all the security gaurds marched around the VM till the back door.. Then came our beloved guruji.. As usual he answered the questions patiently.. and finally he left VM by 9:20 PM.... VM was filled with thousands and thousands of people just standing in whatever small place they got.. it is like Krishna meeting his devotees in thousands..
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When I was walking near kashyap circle i came to know that Mahesh giri ji is giving some talk to the maharastra advanc course participants.. i have never heard any of his speech.. so i just went to listen his speech.. to me he appeared as an angel who came to this world for speech.. waw.. it was mind blowing..

I just want to mention a incident which he said.. he said once in rishikesh when guruji was about to meet 1000's of devotees in satsang he saw everyone keeping their hands on their heads.. There were lots of mosquitos and the medicine which was used to clear the mosquitos.. make them alergic.. So Guruji asked them to stand up and take a long deep breath in and out for 3 times and every one is fine..

But the second half is only known to limited people and mahesh ji was one among them..when guruji was in sri sri kutter in rishikesh after his dinner suddenly his face turned red and his eyes were red.. when asked guruji said nothing..when it became severe after repeated questions guruji said in satsang people cried out of love and devotion.. so it s my duty to take their karmas.. that is why i have taken it on myself.. when they give medicine He did not took it because he said if i take medicine it will give back their karmas which i do not want to do..

Such a love and affection the master has for his devotees.. finally he spoke about DSY... he also mentioned about Seva..he said without seva ,sadana will not help u... He said smiling is human's nature.. and everyone should smile...

Ps.He spoke in Hindi.. so whatever i understood i have written..
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A story from Buddha's life

Once Buddha was in an assembly when a man walked in looking furious. He thought Buddha was doing something wrong. He was a restless businessman and he had found that his children were spending hours with Buddha when they could have engaged themselves in business at that time, making more and more money. He felt that spending four hours of their day seated next to someone whose eyes were always closed was incredulous. This was what had upset the businessman.

So, with furiousness walked straight up to Buddha looked him the eye and spat. He was so angry, he could not find the words to exprss them that he merely spat at Budha. Buddha simply smiled. He showed no anger, though the disciples around him were angry. They would have liked to react but could not because Buddha was there. So, everybody was holding their lips and fists tight. After the businessman spat at Buddha and realised his action was not drawing a reaction, simply walked away in a huff. Buddha did not react or say anything. He just smiled. And that was enough to shock the angry man. For the first time in his life, the man had met someone who would just smile when he spat on his face. That man could not sleep all night and his whole body underwent such a transformation. He was shivering, shaking. He felt as if the whole world had turned upside down.

The next day he went and fell at Buddha’s feet and said, “Please forgive me. I did not know what I did.” To which Buddha replied, “I cannot excuse you!” Everyone including the man and Buddha’s disciples were flabbergasted. Buddha then explained the reason for his statement. He said, “Why should I forgive you when you have done nothing wrong”. The businessman looked a little more surprised and told Buddha that it was he who had wronged him by spitting on him. Buddha simply said, “Oh! That person is not there now. If I ever meet that person whom you spat on, I will tell him to excuse you. To this person who is here, you have done no wrong.”

That is real compassion. Compassion is not saying, “I forgive you.” Your forgiveness should be such that the person who is forgiven, does not even know that you are forgiving them. They should not even feel guilty about their mistake.

Dinesh Bhaiyya's advance course experience

This was the longest i was away from eSatsang. But here i am back again.

Jai Gurudev to all!

I successfully installed my first system update for the year 2008 – the art of living advance course. Cant tell you how much I was looking forward to the silence and the hollow and empties and Guruji's talks and the satsangs.
I realized that just as Part one has 475 tag – 4 sources of energy, 7 levels of existence and 5 knowledge points. Part II has its own 475 – 4 pillars of knowledge, 7 chakras and 5Ss of Sadhana, Seva, Silence, Satsang and Smile… For solidified Silence, I realized that a must-have during advance courses is a cap (a cool hat in case of Bawa) and a worn out pair of slippers (I didn't have to go all out to find one, 'cos JD lent me his).
The cap, when you tilt it down a little, blocks people's faces out and helps keep the silence in. Cos I realized if you see a person's face, with it comes the judgments, a host of cravings and aversions and out goes the silence for a toss…. Besides there is not much judgments I can make about people's footwear… (of course a cap wont be much help for any girl; who can usually tell a person's history, geography, biology and psychology from what he wraps around his sole).

Talking of footwear, the more terrible its condition, the less your mind gets attached to it – out there scorching in the sun or waiting to be a victim of someone else's belongingness. Moreover, the lesser attachments you carry around during the course (handbag, mobile, mats and cushions (in America they call it a nest)), the easier to send the mind (like the email) across in space. It was a great feeling to notice my mind slipping into silence so easily this time. I became aware that the knowledge also hits one so much deeper in silence. Silently watching the mind was truly entertainment unlimited. The myriad of sensations - heat and cold, pain and relief, heavy and light changing with time and place. A few days ago Guruji mentioned how the mind and heart are considered as flowers and the soul as the sutra (thread). In a garland, the thread is invisible and keeps the flowers together. Actually mind and heart in knowledge and awareness is like a flower and the same in ignorance is a thorn.
With awareness, the false falls away and the true stands up. It was fun experiencing anger turn to compassion (seeing some of the participants talking away to glory as if they were on a picnic), observing fear turn to surrender (of falling down the Vishalakshi step during dancing), watching minor irritation and hatred turn to reinforced commitment for more initiative (seeing the litter of plastic while cleaning around Sumeru) and above all watching the beauty of the trees and the flowers and the birds and the skies, in fact feeling the beauty of the whole of nature seeping into every cell of the body, becoming joy and love and awareness and bliss… all of which propelled me into wonder as so how this little body of 5 feet something pack such infinite bliss!

Seva-wise, few days I chose my second favorite seva - garbage collection (the first being gardening) because of which we had earned the title earlier, Cool Clean Men. The day I shirked full-on seva, sadhana would play hard-to-get with me, leaving me sleepy and drowsy.
Given the colorful distractions (people-wise) in our Satsangs, I challenged myself one day to only look at Guruji and nowhere else while singing. The effect was phenomenal and blissful. And the same day Guruji talked about 'Ek tattvabhayasa', studying only one thing 100%.
Food wise, we were very well taken care of by Gauri and Shilpa. Sleep-wise I have never experienced such huge amount of dreams in my entire life. When I would wake up after a few hours, I would be wonderstruck if I slept for a few years to see the quantity of dreams I saw; in some I dreamed about sleeping and in some I even dreamed about dreaming. God only knows which sanskaras (impressions) were being released. The meditations mercifully compensated for the lost rest. All in all, what does one gain from an advance course… Its not what you get, but its what you lose and let go… which is pretty monumental and fundamental!

You only come out looking forward to taking on the world and how soon can you come back for a second helping of the advance course. Truly it's a supreme delight and a sublime pleasure!
Love Dinesh

Guruji, show me the path

Why should I show you the path? I am not so irresponsible. I will take you to your goal. It's the age of airplanes and you are talking in terms of bullock carts. You are sitting in a plane and your flight has taken off. This plane will take you straight to your destination, you need not ask for the path.

Celebrating Silence

Prayer within breath

Is Silence

Love wihtin infinity

Is Silence

Wisdom without words

Is Silence

Compassion without aim

Is Silence

Action without a doer

Is Silence

Smiling with All existence

Is Silence

-- Sri Sri

The Promise

If I had to promise you something, what would it be?
I can't promise that you would always be comfortable...Because comfort brings boredom and discomfort.
I can't promise that all your desires will be fulfilled...Because desires whether fulfilled or unfulfilled bring frustration.
I can't promise that there will always be good times...Because it is the tough times that make us appreciate joy.
I can't promise that we will be rich or famous or powerful...Because they can all be pathways to misery.
I can't promise that we will always be together...Because it is separation that makes togetherness so wonderful.
Yet if you are willing to walk with me,If you are willing to value love over everything else ~I promise that this will be the most rich and fulfilling life possible.I promise your life will be an eternal celebration,I promise you I will cherish you more than a king cherishes his crown,And I shall love you more than a mother loves her newborn.
If you are willing to walk into my arms,If you are willing to live in my heart,You will find the one you have waited forever....You will meet yourself in my arms...I promise.
- H.H. Sri Sri Ravi Shankar